Overdue update

I have been very absent from the blogosphere and I can’t pinpoint exactly why. I guess I turned to blogging when I needed to connect with people about the very intimate obstacles I was facing. With pregnancy, it’s in your face and everyone is happy to share their thoughts/advice/horror stories/happy stories with you. But I have been checking in on you all and still love the relationships here. It’s funny—I attempted to start a public blog that I’d share with family and friends for updates on my pregnancy and then later when the babies come. I had such a hard time writing even one post because I felt like I needed to censor myself. I’m used to being so open and honest here and not being judged about my feelings/decisions/whatever. But when you’re out in the open, even though it’s with my loved ones, there are some thoughts you want to keep private. I definitely do want a public blog because my sister is a thousand miles away and babies change so quickly…but until I have cute baby stories, I’m struggling.

All is going great with this pregnancy! I have gained 30 pounds which blows my mind...especially when people continue to say "gosh, you sure it's twins? You're not very big!" (I find that rather offensive, probably because I worked so hard to get pregnant, I'd like to LOOK pregnant!). I did start physical therapy because I was having some sciatica (sp?) and some shoulder pain which limited my activity even more (heck, sometimes feeding myself hurt my shoulder so bad!). It has DEFINITELY helped! I felt a little bit like a wimp because I started early in my pregnancy but my therapist has been so excited about that because she feels like we'll be able to ward off any major problems, should they attempt to arise. She says there's no reason moms-to-be have to be miserable. So I highly recommend it! :) I also had an ergonomic evaluation done at my cubicle at work and that seemed to help as well.

We start our childbirth class tonight and I'm excited about it. Not that it hasn't sunk in that we're gonna have two babies, but I think it'll make it even more real (and potentially freak me out-LOL). I attempted to get in to a sooner class (my OB recommended we start around 22 weeks - it's a 5 week class - and instead we're starting at 24 weeks) and the receptionist was trying to talk me out of it. I have no reason to think I'd deliver this early but I'd much rather have this info under my belt than not. One of DH’s coworkers was pregnant with twins and due a month or so before us…the wife had the babies at approx. 24 weeks (one was 2 lbs, the other 1 lb) and the smallest one died a few days later (I guess it also had some heart issues and potentially spina bifida that was diagnosed while in the womb). Just absolutely heartbreaking. Not that I would ever take a good report on our babies for granted, but this makes me even more grateful for every good report we've had.

DH painted the nursery over the weekend and it looks perfect! It's nice being married to a guy who takes pride in his work. The soft yellow (nice, gender neutral color since we're not finding out the sexes!) really makes it look like a sweet baby's room. Now I just need to figure out how to make my organization dreams come true. The room is small so I decided to remove the doors from the closet and treat it like a little alcove, with the changing table and a bookcase/cubbies in there (see inspiration photo on left). Unless I pony up the money for the Pottery Barn goods, I'm not sure where I'm gonna find a similar system. I thought it'd be easy (Container Store, Target, etc.) but I'm not having much luck.

For all of you still on that difficult path, you're in my thoughts. I keep hoping for your dreams to be realized sooner rather than later...