Love one another this Christmas

I've been a little absent lately. It's still just hard to believe my news. We're contemplating sharing the good news later today at Christmas Eve (with one family) and on Christmas Day (with another). But I'm hesitant because it's still so early and it all feels so surreal. I'm not strongly exhibiting any symptoms, which I should be grateful for, but it kinda makes me feel like a phony. Maybe I'm a LITTLE more tired, my breasts are more sore than usual, but that's it. As far as I know, everything's doing great in there but I sometimes feel like it's a dream.

I did see my acupuncturist last week and she was VERY encouraged with how I'm doing. I was a little unsure about doing acupuncture because I wouldn't be able to know if it helped or not. But I got on the bandwagon, thinking it couldn't hurt. Before we left town for CCRM, she predicted they'd retrieve 10 eggs (which I questioned, saying, "Really? With only one good ovary?!") and 3-4 would be useable. To refresh your memory, they did indeed retrieve exactly 10 eggs, and we ended up with two transferred and two frozen - 4!! And apparently she predicted I'd get pregnant (a very important tidbit which would have made the 2ww so much easier but I apparently forgot that part of her prediction!). So I pretty much think she's a miracle worker. ;) Therefore, her opinion on my state of being is very much appreciated.

I'm sure other IFers who've received a BFP have felt this way. I want to relish in it but instead I'm almost afraid to plan, talk about it, for fear of jinxing things. I'm certainly not complaining, I just wish I wasn't wired this way. I'm sure once we get to see the baby(s) on ultrasound that I'll be reassured and put at ease. That all happens next week and it can't come fast enough! :)

This Christmas, I'm thankful for the wonderful ladies I've met through this forum. Your support for me, even if you were in dark days, is astounding. I'm keeping you all in my thoughts as we head toward a new year...and who knows what it will hold?

Here's a goofy little cartoon for my fellow furbaby parents...my dog was subjected to this but she does wear a nordic sweater/coat outside in the snow...too cute!

Acupuncture

So I figured nothing else is covered by insurance, why not throw some other out of pocket treatments in to the mix?! Really, at this point, what's a few more hundred dollars?! Gawh...

The counselor referred us to an acupuncturist and I went in for my consultation. It was just like I'd read about in the TCM book, when I diagnosed every organ function as deficient (LOL!). She took my pulse and peered at my tongue. And the diagnosis actually wasn't terrible! I am lacking in Yang (heat)/there is too much cold in me. So I've been eating meat like the biggest carnivore, trying to get blood to my uterus.

My first session was odd, just because I didn't know what to expect. She stuck me and then abandoned me in the room with only my thoughts (gasp!)! But I found that room exceptionally serene and have almost fallen asleep on the table each time. It's just weird - maybe cuz it's time that I'm forced to do nothing (and I'm always going going going) or maybe it is the chi flowing through my body better....whatever it is, I feel better afterwards. I had to do a "fast track" program because I'm not going the recommended 3 months before a cycle and the acupuncturist had a planned trip to China. But I feel good about it and she does too. Every time I see her, she swears I'm getting better (she's a very passionate woman!) and has even predicted how many eggs she thinks I'll produce and how many will fertilize. DH, who's somewhat skeptical about all this (mainly because we'll never know if it helped, whereas if you went to an acupuncturist for pain and then it lessened), said he'd drive over to her and personally thank her if we had the great success she predicted! :)